Monday, 11 January 2010
The kids are going back to school today. They have had a long Christmas Holiday due to the 'Big Freeze!'. Nerves are frazzled, fridges are bare and I have a new admiration for children entertainers.
Life can get back to the normal routine.
Humans like routine, structure, we need to know where we are going, what time, who will be there. We don't like surprises, things that are out of the normal routine. Things come to a halt(as with what happened when the snow covered the U.K.)
Basically we don't like feeling out of control. But what is contradictory is that we are not the ones in control. We are controlled by the restrictions of time, of values of norms, of rules.
This see-saw effect of having control and being out of control makes me very 'dizzy' literally. I can usually 'control' this by doing what I want and sticking to my to do list. But this is not always achievable as there are external demands from others and of course from time.
I struggle with this for a while becoming totally unbalanced and grumpy and feel I am made to stop. Too many arguments, things not working out or feeling low are good indicators of being out of control.
I have found that these are all messages for me to stop what I'm doing and do nothing. In other words, release my expectations of how things should work out.
When you release all expectations you in effect are allowing God/Source/Universe to take care of things. Of course you need to do something too.
To find balance in your life fill one side of the scales with what you can control,i.e. your intentions(hopefully for the highest good for all) and your desires and let the other side be filled by God.
The only other thing to do now is trust and have faith that things will work out as they should.
It is not easy, it is difficult to release control and it is a scary feeling having no control. But remind yourself, you already have no control; you cannot control other people, time or inconveniences (Snow!!).
It is liberating and also comforting knowing you are not alone in all this decision making.
'All a man's ways seem right to him, but the LORD weighs the heart.'