Saturday, 7 July 2012

It's been a long time!

It has been a long time since I visited my own blog. Why is that so?
I feel as if I have run dry... nothing feels the same anymore. What I believed before does not apply any more.
I still believe in angels and still use my crystals but I am going through my own personal healing and do not feel able to give congruent advice, opinions or guidance. It is like I have been STOPPED.
This has happened quite a few times along my journey of awakening, but now it feels like make or break. I am been pushed, pulled, squeezed, strained to look deeper, further, into the realms of my being. To really find me, the being that is real and pure and raw. I am being challenged and provoked to take off every role, mask and cloak, to become naked and vulnerable.
I am feeling like I have nowhere to hide anymore. All the excuses and facades and games I have played do not stick anymore. 'You can fool some of the people some of the time but not all of the people all of the time.' I can't fool myself anymore and that is just it. I am not even that bothered about what others think of me anymore, but I am concerned about what I think of me. The real I the me the essence of my being, wants to be seen and is not happy with being portrayed as anything less than who I am.
I don't know if anyone reads my words, I would like to think that anyone who does, finds something that resonates. If not, that is fine. It is all fine, all of it, even the bad. I hope that when I come out of this journey of discovery, I have more to share with others. Until then . . .