Miracles of my discoveries!

I started this blog so I could share what I experience along my journey. I called it angel guided mentoring after putting the question 'out there' 'What shall I call my blog???'

The answer I 'received' was 'Angel guided'. I added the 'mentoring' as this is what I do - I mentor.

Why the need for this explanation??

I have had a 'kick' up the derriere these past few days. I have had a series of experiences which I believe have been 'angel guided' and at first did not think of them in this way.

I contribute to a blog called writers rising. Every so often I post something on the blog that I have also posted here.

I posted my article on 'Special Relationships', as I thought it had something important to share. I do get over zealous when I read something that lights my fire, and sometimes before letting it digest, I have a need to share it.

So, I did!

I received a comment on the writers rising from a lady who had not commented on my contributions before - Marilyn- It was not a complimentary comment, and if I had received this type of comment a few years ago, it would have paralysed me and pushed me back into my hole, where I would ruminate over the comment, dissecting each word, each letter, reading the worst into it.

But, I am not that person anymore, even though, I felt a twinge of a familiar emotion - strange I can't even think of the word.......bear with me......rejection!!!!

I truly could not remember the word, this happens a lot to me lately, may be I am becoming senile, or maybe words that don't have meaning for me anymore, stay dormant for a while.

Following is the comment from Marilyn;

but darling...what do you think? What are your ideas? We can cite others until we are blue in the face...where is the exploration of your journey and the miracles of your discoveries through what life has shown you. How does it all apply to you? What can you illustrate it with? Tolle has already written his work, his research...what is the application...in your journey? That is were words separate from life...for each journey has its own shared purpose and knowledge along the way. We are the subject matter experts of our own lives...

After the initial sting, I sat up and took notice. This was not any message, this was an important message. Once my bruised ego got out of the way, I could see, hear and be. I was present!

I thanked Marilyn for her comment and went to my bed room and let out a wail. It came from somewhere deep inside a forgotten cavern. I thought my insides would come out from the heaving of my chest.

What was going on???

An angel had visited me - Marilyn's message was angel guided, it was genuine, heart felt and said with love. I felt no malice, no criticism, no judgment. I felt a tug at my heart and soul, to wake up, to come out from behind their hiding place, to be real and true.

All that I have written on this blog is heart felt, full of knowledge and insightful. It is from things I have learnt along my journey.

Marylin shone her light on what I still have in the dark, MY personal wisdom, MY 'miracles of discoveries'- they are many, and it is like my soul is giving me permission to share it's treasures.

It is painful, admitting the truth, but more painful not being true to your self. So I give thanks to Marilyn and to all the other angels in my life of the invisible and physical realm for helping me see this truth.

I will be sharing more of myself in my future posts. I will still be referring to what I have learnt, as this is who I am - I thrive on knowledge and 'need' to share it- but I will be applying it to my experiences and sharing MY wisdom.

I hope this will ignite the spark in others who in turn can share their truth too.

With love and light

Christina - angel guided x

Special Relationships!

Special relationships, what are they? We are talking about intimate, 'love' relationships, borne out of 'love'.

Maybe we should begin with the question of what is love?

'Love is patient,
Love is kind.
It does not envy,
It does not boast,
It is not proud.
It is not rude,
It is not self-seeking.
It is not easily angered,
It keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil
But rejoices in the truth.
It always protects,
Always trusts,
Always hopes,
Always perseveres.'

1 Corinthians 13: 4-7

Therefore whatever is not the above, means it is not love???

So for example, taking one of the lines above, love- 'it is not easily angered.'
Does this mean when we are angry with our intimate partner, do we not love them any more?

It seems so!

But let's not use only the Bible's word for it.

Eckhart Tolle, an author and spiritual teacher, says that,

'If in your relationships you experience both 'love' and the opposite of love - attack, emotional violence and so on - then it is likely that you are confusing ego attachment and addictive clinging with love.......true love has no opposite.'

He continues,

'Love is a state of Being. Your love is not outside; it is deep within you. You can never lose it, and it cannot leave you. It is not dependent on some other body...'

So what are special relationships? Or to put it another way, What is the purpose of a special relationship??

If they invariably create so much emotion, both positive and negative, where the negative is not love, and by the looks of it neither is the positive since it is the opposite of negative, and as said above, 'true love has no opposite'.

Is there a purpose, other than procreation?? Is there something more spiritual or is this it? - You fall in love, have a few good times, have a lot of bad times, have kids, make up, get on, fight again, stay together, or not, fall in love with someone else and start the whole process again, with a few variations.

Tolle believes that humans have increasingly become identified with their mind and therefore most relationships are not rooted in the present. This is why it turns into pain and conflict.

Avoidance of relationships does not dissolve this pain, since the problem is that the identification is with the mind and not the present moment - living in the past or future.

Relationships work on our need to become whole. To make a whole you need both masculine and feminine. That is the pull, the attraction, the search for wholeness, on a physical level, since at the core, we are whole.

So, other than the need for wholeness, what is the purpose of a relationship?

Tolle believes a relationship's purpose is not to make you happy or fulfilled. If you continue to look for happiness through a relationship you will be disillusioned over and over again.

Tolle says that a relationship's purpose is to make you conscious. Which in turn will bring you happiness, for being conscious is your natural state of being, just as love is your natural state of being. Accepting this will help you align with a higher consciousness.

How do you stay conscious? What is conscious?

Staying present, Being, not going to the past which is riddled with guilt, bitterness and hate, or darting to the future which is infested with worry, fear and anxiety.

Staying present makes you an observer. Being an observer, you are alert. Being alert keeps you present, dissolving any pain real or perceived freeing you to accept the NOW!

Consciousness!

What is consciousness?

In the film The Avatar, the 'drivers' were connected to their avatar by having their consciousness connected to the avatar's body.(See avatar post for more info on the film)

What troubled me about this was, What did the body of the 'driver' do whilst his consciousness was 'living' through the avatar? The 'driver' was in a contraption all wired up, and of course there was nowhere to go, but is the body really just a shell???

I have been reading an e-book called The Awakening, by Vicki Anderson . The following sentence caught my attention;

There is only one thing in the Universe and that is Consciousness.

The following question was then pondered;

'If we close our eyes, does the world still exist, even though we are not conscious of it?'

The author then adds, that according to Dr Goswami and other physicists, the answer is NO!"

'Reality is merely an illusion albeit a persistent one.' Albert Einstein

So what does this mean? Nothing exists other than in our consciousness? Is this why when we are thinking of the past, we feel we are actually there. When we daydream is this really our consciousness wandering, experiencing stuff without our body?

So nothing exists, nothing is real. This is really mind blowing!!!

When my Mum was terminally ill, she would go in and out of consciousness. On one occaision when she was conscious, she told me she had just been to Austrailia. I thought she must have been dreaming, or hallucinating since she was on so much medication.

But if there is nothing but consciousness, who is to say that her consciousness didn't really go to Austrailia?!!

She told me how she was above the trees and mountains and how she had so much fun. I humoured her and asked her to take me with her next time. She smiled with a twinkle in her eye, as if she knew a secret.

So if all there is consciousness, then it makes sense to become conscious of our thoughts, feelings and actions. In doing so we can take advantage of this amazing reality (or illusion)- and create what we want to experience.

Healing

I have been thinking about healing this past week, and how some people heal and others don't.

I haven't had a cold for some time, and for a while have been passing headaches, aches and pains and stuffiness as symptoms of energetic shifts. I am sensible though and use my instincts to assess if it needs the doctor's input.

I came down with a really bad sore throat over the weekend. I 'knew' why! Despite the fact that my son has had a cold all week, I understood, energetically, my body had created this illness for a reason.

Symbolically the throat is the seat of the will. I have been battling with, 'God your will not mine' for some time now and not really feeling it. I am so headstrong that my stubbornness seems to take over.

To top that I then feel angry that I am not GETTING IT!

I do what most people do- beat myself up- for not being this, not doing that, not achieving this, not understanding that.

The more I internalized my anger, my throat let me know what a sore point this was for me, by manifesting into a sore, painful throat.

So why is my son ill? And later on that day, why was my daughter complaining of a sore throat? ANGER!!!!

Is this their anger, my anger, anger in general?? A bit of everything, they are teens and that is enough on its own, but I believe as everything is energy, what is the strongest feeling, is what is felt the most.

Now guilt was setting in so I decided to call upon the angels help!

I used some angel visualization to heal my throat. I asked Archangel Michael to cut away any negativity within and without me, and for my children.

I then asked Archangel Raphael to put his emerald-green healing light over our throats.

I then let go (or tried to) waiting for the instantaneous healing I have read happens to some people.

Nothing!!!!

I tried again, but then remembered that it is not the amount of times you do it, it is the trust that healing is already given.

So I started affirming, 'I am healed!'

I had a fitful night, where I can't say I felt the angelic miracle of healing, but awoke then next day with no sore throat, but a very runny nose. So It did work!!!!

I am still ill, but I feel that this is a deep release, and sometimes we have to go through it to become healed. Also, I have spent some low down time, where I have had a chance to re-charge and re-assess my life.

I have spent some lovely moments in nature as well, planting my vegetables on my allotment, where I feel that miracles have been happening all around, helping me heal.

So, why do some people heal and some don't??

I believe, that there are blocks to healing. Our beliefs can be blocks, the belief that 'it takes time' to heal is very ingrained. Or a fear to heal. Some people feel a form of addiction to not been well, they can use it sub-consciously as a reason to procrastinate. Also it is leverage; pain, illness or trauma, is a manipulation tool.

There is also the belief that 'I don't deserve' to be healed, happy, whole. Or the collective belief, especially with flu and viruses, that,'I am bound to get this since this is what the news, the doctors, the parents at school... are saying'

And then there is the need to go through the pain sometimes, to become aware of what is really happening. Sometimes, we need an illness as a way to make us STOP!!!!!

New Moon Creations!

I would like to introduce you to a new friend. I drew this angel a couple of months ago and then put him away in my drawer. As I was rummaging away, looking for something, I caught sight of his knowing face.

So, here he is, too cute to stay hidden away in some dark draw. Symbolic really, coming out of the darkness of our mind, we are greeted with the light of the day, where everything seems much more clear.


When there is a New moon I become very creative, and I need to express my creativeness. So Last night a lovely little fairy and her Unicorn graced my space.

I love the creating process that art gives me. It is like giving birth to your child, you know them already as they are inside you, but you still have that excitement and anticipation to see what they look like, and more importantly to see if they are well.

Express your self in creative ways, the New Moon energy is urging us all to let our light shine.

Avatar

I watched the film 'Avatar' on DVD yesterday - twice!

I didn't catch the movie at the cinema, even though the minute I saw the trailer my heart alerted me that I MUST see this movie.

I 'felt' that it was more than just a 'story' of aliens and war and love, I 'knew' my soul knew that it was a message for US on earth to look after our MOTHER earth and its inhabitants.

I was in tears for most of the film. My family looked on at me, thinking,'oh, here she goes again, crying at any small thing'

For those who have not watched Avatar following is an excerpt of the theme By Frederic and Mary Ann Brussat from the site Spirituality and Practice,

Avatar
Directed by James Cameron
20th Century Fox 12/09 DVD/VHS Feature Film
PG-13 - intense epic battle sequences and warfare, sensuality, language, smoking
'Following the death of his twin brother, a scientist, Jake Sully (Sam Worthington), a former Marine who is confined to a wheelchair, is recruited to take his place in the secret Avatar program on the faraway planet of Pandora. The year is 2154 and the Earth is in serious environmental trouble. The Resources Development Administration (RDA), a corporate consortium, is mining a rare mineral called Unobtainium on Pandora that is needed to solve the Earth's energy crisis.

Because the air in Pandroa is toxic to humans, "drivers" have their consciousness linked to an avatar, a remotely-controlled biological body that can survive in the lethal atmosphere. These creatures are genetically engineered hybrids of human DNA mixed with DNA from the natives of Pandora, the Na'vi. Their mission is to create a bridge of trust with the Na'vi so that mining operations can be expanded.

The technologically equipped mercenary squad, thinks the natives are nothing more than ignorant savages that should be stamped out like cockroaches. Also skeptical about Grace and the Na'vi is Parker Selfridge (Giovanni Ribisi), the business-first station manager who oversees the work of the scientists, the security forces, and the miners.'


What did it for me was not only the amazing technology involved in making the film, making it amazing to watch, but the spiritual meaning.

The inter-connectedness of the Na'vi with nature, how they used their body to connect with the heart of the earth and its creatures, resonates with how we need to be more intune with our planet, to respect and 'listen' to her.

Also it reminded me of indigenous tribes of how they thank the spirit of the animal before they kill it for food. The respect to all life made me weep with love.

The contrast of the mercenary squad of destroying the land and the people who stood in the way of what they wanted, the heartless, emptiness, was so apparent. And the head of the operation, who only had $$$$ on his mind.

What touched me the most was a phrase the Na'vi used often, 'I see you' which is not about seeing with the physical eyes but with the heart - actually seeing, feeling the other person, animal, world.

This resonated with me as this is what is going on in our world, if someone really 'sees you' there is a deep connection of heart energy of love of understanding, whereas, if you do not live through the heart and through the mind only there cannot be true 'seeing' of another.

Neytiri, the daughter of the tribe's leaders saved Jake in the forest from the animals, even though it pained her to kill them. She 'saw' him as having a pure heart, without fear, and the spirits depicted as beautiful, floating and whispy alerted Neytiri that he was 'special'.

Neytiri was assigned to teach Jake their ways. She knew he had learnt the way of the Na'vi when one day as he was finishing off a hunt and he said the 'I see you' to the animal, and Neytiri, saw, that he really could 'see'.

What was also apparent, was how the scientists were portrayed as being sympathetic to the natural world, mirroring how in our world the gap between science and religion is lessening, especially with the discoveries in quantum physics and energy medicine.

Also, what came across, was that it is ok to be a warrior, to have a fearless heart, as long as you respect the whole of life. Neytiri's father was the warrior leader and her mother was the spiritual leader who was like a shaman. The two worked together, taking signs and revering their deity in all aspects of their life.

This can teach us how we must marry the two aspects of ourself - the lower self of the world, with the higher aspect of our spiritual connection to God.

It is a must see film, James Cameron, is an Avatar himself.

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