Stop and 'Smell the Roses'

Life has a way of making you to take notice...little signs and coincidences happening around you to stop and 'smell the roses'.

We might be alerted for the need to change, by the people in our lives through arguments, differences that won't go away or just niggles that make you feel unhappy.

If this isn't enough for you to stop and take stock, preferring to blame others for your unease, the body will then collaborate with the universe to show you that something is amiss.

At first it may not be obvious; a recurring cold which is followed by insistent bladder infections then a throat infection etc. You may subconsciously know something isn't right commenting to your friends that you must be run down...

What do you do about it??

Do you drag yourself to the doctors, fill yourself with antibiotics and plaster yourself up, ready for the next round??

Do you then panic that you cannot take too much time off work; stay in bed; or feel that the household will collapse around you??

Have you thought what will happen if YOU collapse? What will work, your family, friends do then??

You may think, there is nothing you can do to stop what is inevitable, from happening.  Maybe not. But what if you could do something to delay it from happening?

This is what happened to me...

I thought I had it all sorted out - life- I knew there were things that were not perfect but I was putting in the hours; working on myself, I even wrote a book about how to work on yourself called 'Write Therapy-using the power of writing to heal the past and create the life you want'.

Somewhere along the line I had stopped taking notice of the messages the universe; people (who are our biggest teachers as they reflect back to us what is going on inside) and eventually my body.

I was run down...

What did I do about it??

Nothing at first, I carried on, doing more instead of less. I worked as a supply teaching assistant; I did the odd crystal therapy; I did the household chores; carried on being depressed, tired, fed up and in between all that, I wrote my book ( in record time of 2 months).

In retrospect, this was also a message to me, from my higher self, from that place some call soul. My soul was telling me I needed to take note of the guidance I was writing in this little handbook. But I had no time - I had a deadline to meet. I had food to cook. I had bills to pay. I had wrongs to make right...

Eventually, I dragged myself to the doctors, filled myself with antibiotics (which I consequently had allergic reactions to) and plastered myself up, ready for the next round...

I felt a niggling unease, which I alleviated with my crystals, and some angel card readings. But even they could not cancel the damage that had been done.

I had ignored the messages for too long - depression from unresolved grief from losing my mum ten years prior; old guilt for decisions I had made in the past which involved my children's lives; relationship disagreements and the recurring questions of:

Who am I?
Why am I here?
What am I supposed to be doing?

There is a line of thought that says, everything we experience has been already asked for. Maybe not in the 'I want' way but in the 'I don't want' way. In other words, if you spend too much time thinking of what you don't want, guess what? It happens. This is what is meant by the like is attracted to like - the law of attraction.

My book underpins the concepts of the law of attraction. It seems quite ironic that I was writing about it yet did not have the time to practice it. I was focusing on my book to be published - and published it was. I was focusing on giving more workshops - and workshops I gave. So this really did work. What I wasn't focusing positively was on me...
                                                  
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On 4th August 2014, all the above was turned on its head. I remember sitting in the consultants' office. For some reason the nurse had asked me to sit on the therapy couch. My legs were daggling, like a little child's, my partner was sitting to my right near the window.

We waitied for what seemed an eternity...

Finally the consultant walked in with the nurse, I looked up and smiled, it was not reciprocated, their faces were strained. I still did not think the worst (still ignoring the messages??).

'We are sorry to tell you Miss Christou but we have found cancer in the lump we removed from your breast.'..

I could hear crying coming from my right hand side, it irritated me...It was intruding with my thought processes...I couldn't comprehend what had been said.

I then laughed, hysterically, more from recognition of what was obvious- I teach how ignoring the messages and how carrying on without changing, can bring about illness- and also from my outdated  pessimistic outlook of,  'It was bound to happen to me, if it happened to my mum'...

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Eight months on after surgery and treatment I have been given the all clear...

I am relieved and thankful for my health and for the people around me who have contributed to my healing. What I am grateful for more than anything is that I have been given a second chance to practise what I preach; to finally walk my talk; to reclaim my power and live consciously.

I have gone back to the drawing board, examining all my beliefs, thoughts and outdated patterns.

In my book, I share that in order to create the life you really want you need firstly release the past. To release the past we need to become aware of what the past is and see how it is stopping us from moving on.

You do not have to trudge through all the 'he said, she said' stories of your life, but you do have to look at your part in the stories, non-judgmentally and objectively. You need to become the observer of your life, as if you are watching a heart - felt movie.

What is more, you need to feel the feeling that is brought up not just push it aside, displace it, project it or bury it. Be with it, notice how it looks, smells, feels, speaks.

It has taken me a while to share my story, but as always the universe has a way of making us know when the right time is to do what we need... Mine is now.


***I will be sharing what I have learnt on my journey of healing with a series of blogposts and workshops. Please feel free to get in touch through the comments  and my email.***

Miracles of my discoveries!

I started this blog so I could share what I experience along my journey. I called it angel guided mentoring after putting the question 'out there' 'What shall I call my blog???'

The answer I 'received' was 'Angel guided'. I added the 'mentoring' as this is what I do - I mentor.

Why the need for this explanation??

I have had a 'kick' up the derriere these past few days. I have had a series of experiences which I believe have been 'angel guided' and at first did not think of them in this way.

I contribute to a blog called writers rising. Every so often I post something on the blog that I have also posted here.

I posted my article on 'Special Relationships', as I thought it had something important to share. I do get over zealous when I read something that lights my fire, and sometimes before letting it digest, I have a need to share it.

So, I did!

I received a comment on the writers rising from a lady who had not commented on my contributions before - Marilyn- It was not a complimentary comment, and if I had received this type of comment a few years ago, it would have paralysed me and pushed me back into my hole, where I would ruminate over the comment, dissecting each word, each letter, reading the worst into it.

But, I am not that person anymore, even though, I felt a twinge of a familiar emotion - strange I can't even think of the word.......bear with me......rejection!!!!

I truly could not remember the word, this happens a lot to me lately, may be I am becoming senile, or maybe words that don't have meaning for me anymore, stay dormant for a while.

Following is the comment from Marilyn;

but darling...what do you think? What are your ideas? We can cite others until we are blue in the face...where is the exploration of your journey and the miracles of your discoveries through what life has shown you. How does it all apply to you? What can you illustrate it with? Tolle has already written his work, his research...what is the application...in your journey? That is were words separate from life...for each journey has its own shared purpose and knowledge along the way. We are the subject matter experts of our own lives...

After the initial sting, I sat up and took notice. This was not any message, this was an important message. Once my bruised ego got out of the way, I could see, hear and be. I was present!

I thanked Marilyn for her comment and went to my bed room and let out a wail. It came from somewhere deep inside a forgotten cavern. I thought my insides would come out from the heaving of my chest.

What was going on???

An angel had visited me - Marilyn's message was angel guided, it was genuine, heart felt and said with love. I felt no malice, no criticism, no judgment. I felt a tug at my heart and soul, to wake up, to come out from behind their hiding place, to be real and true.

All that I have written on this blog is heart felt, full of knowledge and insightful. It is from things I have learnt along my journey.

Marylin shone her light on what I still have in the dark, MY personal wisdom, MY 'miracles of discoveries'- they are many, and it is like my soul is giving me permission to share it's treasures.

It is painful, admitting the truth, but more painful not being true to your self. So I give thanks to Marilyn and to all the other angels in my life of the invisible and physical realm for helping me see this truth.

I will be sharing more of myself in my future posts. I will still be referring to what I have learnt, as this is who I am - I thrive on knowledge and 'need' to share it- but I will be applying it to my experiences and sharing MY wisdom.

I hope this will ignite the spark in others who in turn can share their truth too.

With love and light

Christina - angel guided x