Ride the Wave of Change

Happy 2016

I was writing a post about how the new year always brings with it an anxiousness of how to move forward, as if our life depended on it. I was putting the finishing touches to it then I pressed something that totally deleted the whole post.

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had just spent 45 minutes writing furiously at a piece which I thought was very insightful..

I sat there for a moment seething with anger, feeling stupid and wondering why on earth this happened. When it occurred to me, this is what life is like.

We start something which we may have good intentions on achieving. We set a date, a time, even choose the people who will be involved in our endeavor and then boom! A curve ball is thrown in the works.

We don't like it. We stamp out feet, we shout, we cry we turn against those we put our trust in to help us with our task and then we sulk, even going into depression, because we have not got what we wanted.

Oh well, there is always next year, to start again we may subconsciously assume. 

What if next year is now? 

What if we can do it all now? 

What if all we have is now?

Which is more to the point, why do we leave things for a later date?

Why?

So what, things didn't work out!

So what, we put a lot of our time and energy in it!

So what! So what! So what!!!

We stay in relationships that are obviously unhealthy, because we cling on to the effort we have put into it. We are not even fighting for the relationship any more but more about fighting for the time and energy we have put into it. 

So what?

OK, there is a point to this I am sure, it doesn't seem to be materialising easily...

So what?

What if it isn't meant to be easy?

What if it is all meant to be this way; fumbling in the dark; finding our way; looking for a switch that will lighten our path, then falling again as we come across a dark patch then looking again for that light?

That sounds more realistic to me. That sounds more like the life that most people have.

It is too much pressure to put on ourselves to expect things to always work out, especially the way we expect them...

Stop with the expecting! 

We are NOT in control...

Ha! How does that feel now to be told this truth, yes truth?

We are NOT in control...

Yes we are in control of how we react but not of how others do blady! blady! blah!....

Really?????

Do you feel in control of how you feel?

I certainly don't. Not all the time.

I have practised meditation, breathing exercises, reiki, mindfulness, counselling techniques etc, etc, etc I even teach others to do the same, but something that is very apparent and my family and close friends can vouch for this...I do not always, show that I am in control of my feelings.

And that is OK! 

That is more than OK. 

Do you know why?

Things change; you change, I change, life changes even if it seems that it doesn't.

What we are in control of is the ability to choose what we do with change. 

We either fight it all the way or we ride the wave of change.

If you choose the latter, which I hope this is the point I am making, you will have to be prepared for some bruises and tears. For anything with a risk, takes practice, guts and faith.

You WILL fall...not might or if you fall...you WILL FALL... 

And that is OK!

You will cry, scream and want to just stay put and argue your point and make others wrong. 

And that is OK if you want to semi live.

But if you want to live you will have to get up onto that board and surf the wave, and allow it to take you to wherever it does. 

You can then choose what you do with it. You can then decide whether to stay or hop on to the next wave of change. Either way change will happen.

Happy surfing! 

Stop and 'Smell the Roses'

Life has a way of making you to take notice...little signs and coincidences happening around you to stop and 'smell the roses'.

We might be alerted for the need to change, by the people in our lives through arguments, differences that won't go away or just niggles that make you feel unhappy.

If this isn't enough for you to stop and take stock, preferring to blame others for your unease, the body will then collaborate with the universe to show you that something is amiss.

At first it may not be obvious; a recurring cold which is followed by insistent bladder infections then a throat infection etc. You may subconsciously know something isn't right commenting to your friends that you must be run down...

What do you do about it??

Do you drag yourself to the doctors, fill yourself with antibiotics and plaster yourself up, ready for the next round??

Do you then panic that you cannot take too much time off work; stay in bed; or feel that the household will collapse around you??

Have you thought what will happen if YOU collapse? What will work, your family, friends do then??

You may think, there is nothing you can do to stop what is inevitable, from happening.  Maybe not. But what if you could do something to delay it from happening?

This is what happened to me...

I thought I had it all sorted out - life- I knew there were things that were not perfect but I was putting in the hours; working on myself, I even wrote a book about how to work on yourself called 'Write Therapy-using the power of writing to heal the past and create the life you want'.

Somewhere along the line I had stopped taking notice of the messages the universe; people (who are our biggest teachers as they reflect back to us what is going on inside) and eventually my body.

I was run down...

What did I do about it??

Nothing at first, I carried on, doing more instead of less. I worked as a supply teaching assistant; I did the odd crystal therapy; I did the household chores; carried on being depressed, tired, fed up and in between all that, I wrote my book ( in record time of 2 months).

In retrospect, this was also a message to me, from my higher self, from that place some call soul. My soul was telling me I needed to take note of the guidance I was writing in this little handbook. But I had no time - I had a deadline to meet. I had food to cook. I had bills to pay. I had wrongs to make right...

Eventually, I dragged myself to the doctors, filled myself with antibiotics (which I consequently had allergic reactions to) and plastered myself up, ready for the next round...

I felt a niggling unease, which I alleviated with my crystals, and some angel card readings. But even they could not cancel the damage that had been done.

I had ignored the messages for too long - depression from unresolved grief from losing my mum ten years prior; old guilt for decisions I had made in the past which involved my children's lives; relationship disagreements and the recurring questions of:

Who am I?
Why am I here?
What am I supposed to be doing?

There is a line of thought that says, everything we experience has been already asked for. Maybe not in the 'I want' way but in the 'I don't want' way. In other words, if you spend too much time thinking of what you don't want, guess what? It happens. This is what is meant by the like is attracted to like - the law of attraction.

My book underpins the concepts of the law of attraction. It seems quite ironic that I was writing about it yet did not have the time to practice it. I was focusing on my book to be published - and published it was. I was focusing on giving more workshops - and workshops I gave. So this really did work. What I wasn't focusing positively was on me...
                                                  
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On 4th August 2014, all the above was turned on its head. I remember sitting in the consultants' office. For some reason the nurse had asked me to sit on the therapy couch. My legs were daggling, like a little child's, my partner was sitting to my right near the window.

We waitied for what seemed an eternity...

Finally the consultant walked in with the nurse, I looked up and smiled, it was not reciprocated, their faces were strained. I still did not think the worst (still ignoring the messages??).

'We are sorry to tell you Miss Christou but we have found cancer in the lump we removed from your breast.'..

I could hear crying coming from my right hand side, it irritated me...It was intruding with my thought processes...I couldn't comprehend what had been said.

I then laughed, hysterically, more from recognition of what was obvious- I teach how ignoring the messages and how carrying on without changing, can bring about illness- and also from my outdated  pessimistic outlook of,  'It was bound to happen to me, if it happened to my mum'...

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Eight months on after surgery and treatment I have been given the all clear...

I am relieved and thankful for my health and for the people around me who have contributed to my healing. What I am grateful for more than anything is that I have been given a second chance to practise what I preach; to finally walk my talk; to reclaim my power and live consciously.

I have gone back to the drawing board, examining all my beliefs, thoughts and outdated patterns.

In my book, I share that in order to create the life you really want you need firstly release the past. To release the past we need to become aware of what the past is and see how it is stopping us from moving on.

You do not have to trudge through all the 'he said, she said' stories of your life, but you do have to look at your part in the stories, non-judgmentally and objectively. You need to become the observer of your life, as if you are watching a heart - felt movie.

What is more, you need to feel the feeling that is brought up not just push it aside, displace it, project it or bury it. Be with it, notice how it looks, smells, feels, speaks.

It has taken me a while to share my story, but as always the universe has a way of making us know when the right time is to do what we need... Mine is now.


***I will be sharing what I have learnt on my journey of healing with a series of blogposts and workshops. Please feel free to get in touch through the comments  and my email.***

Write Therapy

'Set yourself a challenge; decide to really listen to how people talk; whether,
they are problem talkers or solution talkers. You will be amazed at what you
will hear. The more you become attuned to people’s ‘talk’ the easier it will be
to work on your own ‘talk’... ' Write Therapy Chapter 2 Christina Christou


I have written a book compiled of all the tools I have learned through the years. Write Therapy - using the power of words to heal the past and create the life you want, is a self-help book using journaling and the law of attraction.

The book is being promoted by a new publishing concept where the reader helps decide if the Author receives a publishing contract. I need 250 pre-orders for the book to be published.

Take a visit to the website Britains Next Best Seller and help promote other authors too.

Love Christina

Healing

I have been thinking about healing this past week, and how some people heal and others don't.

I haven't had a cold for some time, and for a while have been passing headaches, aches and pains and stuffiness as symptoms of energetic shifts. I am sensible though and use my instincts to assess if it needs the doctor's input.

I came down with a really bad sore throat over the weekend. I 'knew' why! Despite the fact that my son has had a cold all week, I understood, energetically, my body had created this illness for a reason.

Symbolically the throat is the seat of the will. I have been battling with, 'God your will not mine' for some time now and not really feeling it. I am so headstrong that my stubbornness seems to take over.

To top that I then feel angry that I am not GETTING IT!

I do what most people do- beat myself up- for not being this, not doing that, not achieving this, not understanding that.

The more I internalized my anger, my throat let me know what a sore point this was for me, by manifesting into a sore, painful throat.

So why is my son ill? And later on that day, why was my daughter complaining of a sore throat? ANGER!!!!

Is this their anger, my anger, anger in general?? A bit of everything, they are teens and that is enough on its own, but I believe as everything is energy, what is the strongest feeling, is what is felt the most.

Now guilt was setting in so I decided to call upon the angels help!

I used some angel visualization to heal my throat. I asked Archangel Michael to cut away any negativity within and without me, and for my children.

I then asked Archangel Raphael to put his emerald-green healing light over our throats.

I then let go (or tried to) waiting for the instantaneous healing I have read happens to some people.

Nothing!!!!

I tried again, but then remembered that it is not the amount of times you do it, it is the trust that healing is already given.

So I started affirming, 'I am healed!'

I had a fitful night, where I can't say I felt the angelic miracle of healing, but awoke then next day with no sore throat, but a very runny nose. So It did work!!!!

I am still ill, but I feel that this is a deep release, and sometimes we have to go through it to become healed. Also, I have spent some low down time, where I have had a chance to re-charge and re-assess my life.

I have spent some lovely moments in nature as well, planting my vegetables on my allotment, where I feel that miracles have been happening all around, helping me heal.

So, why do some people heal and some don't??

I believe, that there are blocks to healing. Our beliefs can be blocks, the belief that 'it takes time' to heal is very ingrained. Or a fear to heal. Some people feel a form of addiction to not been well, they can use it sub-consciously as a reason to procrastinate. Also it is leverage; pain, illness or trauma, is a manipulation tool.

There is also the belief that 'I don't deserve' to be healed, happy, whole. Or the collective belief, especially with flu and viruses, that,'I am bound to get this since this is what the news, the doctors, the parents at school... are saying'

And then there is the need to go through the pain sometimes, to become aware of what is really happening. Sometimes, we need an illness as a way to make us STOP!!!!!

'Physician Heal Thyself '

Today's Angel guidance comes from one of my favourite Archangels - Raphael.

Archangel Raphael is the patron angel of healers and a guardian of the sacred knowledge of healing.

The crystal Snow Quartz is a gentler version of Clear Quartz, which is a stone Archangel Raphael is associated with, since it is a master healing stone having all the colours of the rainbow.

The guidance suggests to take the time to replenish your reserves, make yourself whole before you can assist another.

There seems to be a repetition in these messages; self-love, self-forgiveness, learning the lesson first, and now healing yourself first.

I find when I am running with something before I have fully integrated it into my being, I am pulled back, sometimes very painfully and made to listen!

Following guidance from your soul is not all fun and games!

If I don't stop and listen, I start to get pains in my neck and shoulders. My computer freezes up on me, if I am not writing something in alignment with my guidance. I start to feel irritated and fearful and even nauseous.

So, I surrender (eventually, since I can be stubborn) and LISTEN!

I try not over analyse things, accepting that maybe I am not supposed to understand the Whys? or the Hows?. I trust that Spirit wants what is in the best interest for me and my family, whatever that may be, and I start again.

I don't start from the very beginning, hopefully, I have gained some insight whilst listening, but I start to take smaller steps, instead of huge leaps. I stay alert for any detour I am guided to take and I try not to question the reasons(very hard if you're head strong).

Difficult to do, but not impossible!

'Physician Heal Thyself' Hebrew Proverb.