Ride the Wave of Change

Happy 2016

I was writing a post about how the new year always brings with it an anxiousness of how to move forward, as if our life depended on it. I was putting the finishing touches to it then I pressed something that totally deleted the whole post.

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had just spent 45 minutes writing furiously at a piece which I thought was very insightful..

I sat there for a moment seething with anger, feeling stupid and wondering why on earth this happened. When it occurred to me, this is what life is like.

We start something which we may have good intentions on achieving. We set a date, a time, even choose the people who will be involved in our endeavor and then boom! A curve ball is thrown in the works.

We don't like it. We stamp out feet, we shout, we cry we turn against those we put our trust in to help us with our task and then we sulk, even going into depression, because we have not got what we wanted.

Oh well, there is always next year, to start again we may subconsciously assume. 

What if next year is now? 

What if we can do it all now? 

What if all we have is now?

Which is more to the point, why do we leave things for a later date?

Why?

So what, things didn't work out!

So what, we put a lot of our time and energy in it!

So what! So what! So what!!!

We stay in relationships that are obviously unhealthy, because we cling on to the effort we have put into it. We are not even fighting for the relationship any more but more about fighting for the time and energy we have put into it. 

So what?

OK, there is a point to this I am sure, it doesn't seem to be materialising easily...

So what?

What if it isn't meant to be easy?

What if it is all meant to be this way; fumbling in the dark; finding our way; looking for a switch that will lighten our path, then falling again as we come across a dark patch then looking again for that light?

That sounds more realistic to me. That sounds more like the life that most people have.

It is too much pressure to put on ourselves to expect things to always work out, especially the way we expect them...

Stop with the expecting! 

We are NOT in control...

Ha! How does that feel now to be told this truth, yes truth?

We are NOT in control...

Yes we are in control of how we react but not of how others do blady! blady! blah!....

Really?????

Do you feel in control of how you feel?

I certainly don't. Not all the time.

I have practised meditation, breathing exercises, reiki, mindfulness, counselling techniques etc, etc, etc I even teach others to do the same, but something that is very apparent and my family and close friends can vouch for this...I do not always, show that I am in control of my feelings.

And that is OK! 

That is more than OK. 

Do you know why?

Things change; you change, I change, life changes even if it seems that it doesn't.

What we are in control of is the ability to choose what we do with change. 

We either fight it all the way or we ride the wave of change.

If you choose the latter, which I hope this is the point I am making, you will have to be prepared for some bruises and tears. For anything with a risk, takes practice, guts and faith.

You WILL fall...not might or if you fall...you WILL FALL... 

And that is OK!

You will cry, scream and want to just stay put and argue your point and make others wrong. 

And that is OK if you want to semi live.

But if you want to live you will have to get up onto that board and surf the wave, and allow it to take you to wherever it does. 

You can then choose what you do with it. You can then decide whether to stay or hop on to the next wave of change. Either way change will happen.

Happy surfing! 

Write Therapies

Just to let you know I have a new website called writetherapies.com

New blogs and  my offerings will be found there. 

Thank you for all your support. 

Hope to see you there :) 


Christina x

Stop and 'Smell the Roses'

Life has a way of making you to take notice...little signs and coincidences happening around you to stop and 'smell the roses'.

We might be alerted for the need to change, by the people in our lives through arguments, differences that won't go away or just niggles that make you feel unhappy.

If this isn't enough for you to stop and take stock, preferring to blame others for your unease, the body will then collaborate with the universe to show you that something is amiss.

At first it may not be obvious; a recurring cold which is followed by insistent bladder infections then a throat infection etc. You may subconsciously know something isn't right commenting to your friends that you must be run down...

What do you do about it??

Do you drag yourself to the doctors, fill yourself with antibiotics and plaster yourself up, ready for the next round??

Do you then panic that you cannot take too much time off work; stay in bed; or feel that the household will collapse around you??

Have you thought what will happen if YOU collapse? What will work, your family, friends do then??

You may think, there is nothing you can do to stop what is inevitable, from happening.  Maybe not. But what if you could do something to delay it from happening?

This is what happened to me...

I thought I had it all sorted out - life- I knew there were things that were not perfect but I was putting in the hours; working on myself, I even wrote a book about how to work on yourself called 'Write Therapy-using the power of writing to heal the past and create the life you want'.

Somewhere along the line I had stopped taking notice of the messages the universe; people (who are our biggest teachers as they reflect back to us what is going on inside) and eventually my body.

I was run down...

What did I do about it??

Nothing at first, I carried on, doing more instead of less. I worked as a supply teaching assistant; I did the odd crystal therapy; I did the household chores; carried on being depressed, tired, fed up and in between all that, I wrote my book ( in record time of 2 months).

In retrospect, this was also a message to me, from my higher self, from that place some call soul. My soul was telling me I needed to take note of the guidance I was writing in this little handbook. But I had no time - I had a deadline to meet. I had food to cook. I had bills to pay. I had wrongs to make right...

Eventually, I dragged myself to the doctors, filled myself with antibiotics (which I consequently had allergic reactions to) and plastered myself up, ready for the next round...

I felt a niggling unease, which I alleviated with my crystals, and some angel card readings. But even they could not cancel the damage that had been done.

I had ignored the messages for too long - depression from unresolved grief from losing my mum ten years prior; old guilt for decisions I had made in the past which involved my children's lives; relationship disagreements and the recurring questions of:

Who am I?
Why am I here?
What am I supposed to be doing?

There is a line of thought that says, everything we experience has been already asked for. Maybe not in the 'I want' way but in the 'I don't want' way. In other words, if you spend too much time thinking of what you don't want, guess what? It happens. This is what is meant by the like is attracted to like - the law of attraction.

My book underpins the concepts of the law of attraction. It seems quite ironic that I was writing about it yet did not have the time to practice it. I was focusing on my book to be published - and published it was. I was focusing on giving more workshops - and workshops I gave. So this really did work. What I wasn't focusing positively was on me...
                                                  
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On 4th August 2014, all the above was turned on its head. I remember sitting in the consultants' office. For some reason the nurse had asked me to sit on the therapy couch. My legs were daggling, like a little child's, my partner was sitting to my right near the window.

We waitied for what seemed an eternity...

Finally the consultant walked in with the nurse, I looked up and smiled, it was not reciprocated, their faces were strained. I still did not think the worst (still ignoring the messages??).

'We are sorry to tell you Miss Christou but we have found cancer in the lump we removed from your breast.'..

I could hear crying coming from my right hand side, it irritated me...It was intruding with my thought processes...I couldn't comprehend what had been said.

I then laughed, hysterically, more from recognition of what was obvious- I teach how ignoring the messages and how carrying on without changing, can bring about illness- and also from my outdated  pessimistic outlook of,  'It was bound to happen to me, if it happened to my mum'...

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Eight months on after surgery and treatment I have been given the all clear...

I am relieved and thankful for my health and for the people around me who have contributed to my healing. What I am grateful for more than anything is that I have been given a second chance to practise what I preach; to finally walk my talk; to reclaim my power and live consciously.

I have gone back to the drawing board, examining all my beliefs, thoughts and outdated patterns.

In my book, I share that in order to create the life you really want you need firstly release the past. To release the past we need to become aware of what the past is and see how it is stopping us from moving on.

You do not have to trudge through all the 'he said, she said' stories of your life, but you do have to look at your part in the stories, non-judgmentally and objectively. You need to become the observer of your life, as if you are watching a heart - felt movie.

What is more, you need to feel the feeling that is brought up not just push it aside, displace it, project it or bury it. Be with it, notice how it looks, smells, feels, speaks.

It has taken me a while to share my story, but as always the universe has a way of making us know when the right time is to do what we need... Mine is now.


***I will be sharing what I have learnt on my journey of healing with a series of blogposts and workshops. Please feel free to get in touch through the comments  and my email.***

Working Back from the Results

Today started off full of promise where I jumped out of bed with my mind buzzing with ideas. I quickly wrote them all down in my journal and started to put together my thoughts for my forthcoming talks on 7th and 8th June.

As I was rehearsing my talk I found myself distracted by internal and external events, e.g: cat meowing for food; my tummy rumbling; partner coming in and out of the kitchen. I felt my resolve quickly transforming into frustration. So, I decided to take my work to the library. As I parked near the library I changed my mind as I didn't fancy walking through the rain to sit in a stuffy room with other computer users whilst I tried to create.

This pattern continued through lunch time until I decided to practice what I was trying to share. I meditated with my crystals and let them help me release my internal blocks to creating, which were evidently being symbolically shown to me in my external world.

Did this stop the distractions? No, of course not: I watched 'Loose Women' (a women's chat show) and had something else to eat, read my emails, went on face book and then sat down to write this post. As I was in my flow I got a call from my loving other half to help him with something...

So, what is this all about?

Sometimes, it is not enough to have that brilliant idea; the best tools and techniques to move on; the time or space. It is about knowing, what it is you want to achieve. You need to have the result in the fore of your mind and work back ward.

This is sometimes harder for creative people who need to be in the moment; to get the inspiration; to go with the feeling. I have all that, what I need at the moment is structure to keep me focused.

I continued with my ‘running around’ for another two hours where I picked up my son from work, went food shopping and booked a client in for crystal therapy. In amongst all this I also promised my event organizer that I would have my bio ready within the hour (I never said which hour J )

Food is in the oven I am back on the lap top and finishing off this post. My head is clearer even if my body is more tired. There are still hours left in this day where I can finish what I started at 7 am this morning.

Message from my angels (Have just picked myself an angel card as I write)

‘I am the Angel of Marriage and I am assisting you right now!!’

In other words, I need to find some time for my other half…today!!!!

Dear Diary

I have written in you for years

You have helped me with my fears

I have poured all I have inside

Things that I have learnt to hide.

You have helped me through

Confusion, through pain and love

I have found in your pages

All that I am.

My mind needs your help

To straighten out the thoughts

To unravel the tangled emotions

That are caught in its claws.

I trust you to listen to allow

Me the time

For in your world there is 

No time-

Just space and patience

A place where I can

Lay the past to rest

Bearing all of it 

Not just the best.

Your lines give me structure

To create a new path

You are open and welcoming

Like a loving old Aunt

You lay there waiting for me

Never pushing or pleading

Ready for me whenever

My heart is bleeding or needing

A release.

Thank you dear Dairy

Thank you for your peace

xxx

Write Therapy

'Set yourself a challenge; decide to really listen to how people talk; whether,
they are problem talkers or solution talkers. You will be amazed at what you
will hear. The more you become attuned to people’s ‘talk’ the easier it will be
to work on your own ‘talk’... ' Write Therapy Chapter 2 Christina Christou


I have written a book compiled of all the tools I have learned through the years. Write Therapy - using the power of words to heal the past and create the life you want, is a self-help book using journaling and the law of attraction.

The book is being promoted by a new publishing concept where the reader helps decide if the Author receives a publishing contract. I need 250 pre-orders for the book to be published.

Take a visit to the website Britains Next Best Seller and help promote other authors too.

Love Christina

This Valentine's be in-love with life!

February 14th is, as everyone is aware, Saint Valentine’s Day. Whether we want to remember this day or not, the shops won’t allow us to forget; Cards, cuddly toys, mugs, jewellery and cheeky intimate presents adorn the shelves of every money making outlet.

How much do you spend on a Valentine’s gift? Is love measured by the monetary amount? It would be nice to think that a simple ‘I love you’ would be enough to show your beloved that you love them. But that is not generally the case, especially when we have Saint Valentine peeking at us from every angle.

Who is this guy who has most of the world pulling at his heart strings? A popular account is that Saint Valentine was a holy priest from Rome. It states that he was imprisoned for helping the Christians who were being persecuted. According to legend, during his imprisonment, he healed the daughter of his jailer. Apparently, before his execution he wrote her a letter signed "Your Valentine" as a farewell.

It was first associated with romantic love in the Middle ages, where there was a tradition of courtly love. In 18th-century England, it evolved into an occasion when lovers expressed their love for each other by giving flowers; candy and sending greeting cards (known as "valentines").

Red hearts, doves and figures of cupid are Valentine's Day symbols that are used today. Also, a dozen red roses are the symbol of romance, along with a candlelit dinner under the moonlight, washed down with a glass of bubbly; red rose petals scattered on the carpet leading to the bath tub filled with sweet smelling bubbles…

All this for love- romantic love!

But what if you do not have a Valentine? Does this mean you cannot enjoy the novelty and the energy of Valentine’s Day and love? Who is to say that you cannot send yourself a card or gift; have a delicious meal and a glass of champagne or a beauty/healing treatment?

Saint Valentine’s Day is just one day where lovers can express their love. Love is not only for one day though. Love is always, everywhere and for everyone, whether in a relationship or not.

Love yourself enough to know that you are not unlovable if you don’t have a Valentine. Love yourself enough to know you do not need someone else to make you whole – you are already whole. 

So, this Valentine’s, whatever your romantic status, be in-love with life and life will be in-love with you. This is the best way to attract another person who is also happy with being in-love.

Following are some spiritual ways to invoke love and also keep love alive:

v     Crystals- love can be invoked with having a piece of Rose Quartz in your bedroom.

v     Angels – having figures or pictures of cupid the classic symbol of love.

v     Archangels- invoke Jophiel the Archangel of beauty which can help beautify your thoughts and surroundings.

v     Affirmations –  saying positive phrases in the present attracts our desires, ‘I welcome love into my life’

v     Candles – lighting a red or pink candle and chanting a ritual to attract love.

v     Flowers/essential oils – the sweet scent of flowers especially roses can invoke the energy of love.

v     Figurines – of couples in loving embrace or heart shaped ornaments help your focus on romance.

New Moon, New Year 2014

2014 is a special time!

There will be clarity and unity for all. Unfortunately, there will be some who will not feel this.
No amount of fighting, manipulating, saving or guiding will help them. Clarity will be available for all but many will not be ready to see what it shows up. Some will not be able to face the truth preferring to stay in darkness and illusion. Each person must be allowed to make their own choices at this time. The ones who want to live in the light of truth will seek others who are living it also, or who are able to assist them. The ones who continue to see strife, conflict and revenge will feel more stress, anxiety and despair.  There will be more compassion and love available for all, hearts will be opening, people will seek to unite rather than separate. There will be more opportunities for building up communities, sharing and caring.

Lots of love and joy

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Symbolism -How what you are doing, is telling you what is REALLY going on!!!!

I love symbolism, I love how looking at things in a different way can show you what is really going on!

For example,

How procrastination is really showing you that you are resisting change, avoiding success or fear of failure.
How being late is really showing that you are fighting authority, not believing in the flow, or not sure about yourself.
How not getting the job, really means you don't really want the job, being indecisive, not setting your intentions or there is something better out there for you.

But how do you know what your actions or situations are really symbolising?

It takes practice and a change of perception. It takes a belief in the premise 'that all is connected'.

Nothing is separate, random or a coincidence.

Everything happens for a reason. And that reason is sometimes not clear, sometimes it isn't meant to be.
But there is always a message that can be unscrambled, a hint, a guide in your actions or situation.

That's where symbolism comes in,

For example, the other day I received a call for a job in Old Oscott hill in Kingstanding.

• I left  home without the power connection to the Sat Nav
• I had no time sheet
• No petrol
• no idea where the place was
• traffic diversions made worse by me trying to override the Sat Nav (I'd gone home and found the power connection)
• I was late

Eventually I had to call my agency and let her know that I wouldn't make it on time. Another person was called in to take my place and I went back home, feeling quite relieved.

Once  home  I looked at what had happened with a symbolic eye. I realised I had  helped in sabotaging the event.  I didn't really want to go,

 I had given my power away (no power connection). I was giving my time away (no time sheets), I was feeling lethargic (running on empty). Confusion, not having a clear direction (not knowing the route). Not trusting (overriding Sat Nav).

I took it further and looked at the actual address,
Old Oscott hill is an old hill , in history being a mound. Was I trapped in the past, with a 'mound'full of stuff?

Kingstanding, King - Authority, Standing - firm, stable. Was I rebelling authority.

I wanted more control in my life, in my employment.

If anything, looking at your life through a symbolic eye can be fun.

If you want help with unscrambling your happenings, let me know...

In my next blog I will make a general list of meanings for situations, feelings and thoughts.

Happy unscrambling!

Angel reading for first week of September

What do the angels tell us for the beginning of September?

Time Out!!

It's time to slow down and take care of ourselves.

Find ways to relax, take it easy.

Our inner child is yearning for some TLC.

Take a nap, go and play, gain some new energy. This will usher in new positive energy to help us be more efficient and productive.

With this new energy we will be available to others. We cannot help others if we do not look after ourselves.

The angels are urging us to love ourselves, forgive ourselves, sort out ourselves out.

We are not alone though!

When we pray or ask for Divine assistance we are urged  to listen to the our Divine guidance which are those repetitive thoughts and feelings, visions, dreams or auditory messages.

Know that God and the angels are working with us to make the changes we need!!!

Blocked!

Our drains are blocked!

Not only our house, but the whole street's drains are blocked.

I know that is not something to write about, but it got me thinking. I like to see the symbolism in situations. 

Houses symbolize the body. What goes on inside the house, reflects what is going on inside us. 

Drains?

Well that can symbolize the elimination system of the body. Energetically it could also symbolize blocked ideas, resisting change, holding on, not letting go!

The whole street? Symbolizing the collective. What affects the one affects all. It is a domino effect. Our thoughts affect others, our beliefs, our attitudes, our behaviors.

People we interact with are mirrors showing us what is inside us. In the same way as the blocked drains are showing our congested thoughts.

Congested thoughts create physical problems. Our household seems to be always on the toilet, with some complaint or the other. I wonder how our neighbors' bowel movements are? (no I'm not going to ask...) 

The drains have now been unblocked, thankfully. Hopefully this means something else has shifted in our minds.

 "CLEAR MIND, CLEAR SIGHT -You can see clearly if your mind is clear. Spend a little time each day to empty your mind so that you can see the truth in all situations!!"

The above should be instead:

"CLEAR MIND, CLEAR BOWELS -You can see clearly if your mind is clear. Spend a little time each day to empty your bowels so that you can see the truth in all situations!!"

Special!

I worked a shift in a moderate/severe Autistic Children's Home yesterday. I haven't done anything like this before and my experience with autism is in mainstream school as a teaching assistant. As I am doing agency work I was asked if I wouldn't mind doing a shift.

I was a little apprehensive at first, thinking I wasn't qualified as a care worker. I was also feeling another emotion, fear!

Fear???

Yes I was feeling fear. I searched my feelings further and realized that from a young age I have always shied away from people who are 'different.' I feel ashamed to say this but one of my earliest memories is being at the zoo aged about 9 or 10 and a group of Down's Syndrome children were standing nearby. I was so afraid I ran to my Mum.

I went to the Home the day before to see the route that I had to take. The grounds were beautiful, on acres of farmland with sheep, wild rabbits with homes scattered among trees. Out of a window in one of the homes sat a boy of 19 years old screaming and rocking. The scenic view melted into the background and all I could see and hear was this poor young man making unintelligible noises. Were they of joy or pain?

The next day I drove down the winding, country lanes thinking maybe I could just not turn up. I felt ashamed at my fear. I really didn't want to go, but I didn't want to let the agency down or the Home that were expecting me.

As I entered the grounds, again I was overwhelmed by the beauty of nature all around me. I was directed to the home I was to help in. I was greeted by four care workers and a boy of 10 or 11. He was smiling and like any child was curious at who was visiting.

The Home was spacious, clean and had been recently refurbished so was a little sparse on decor but was welcoming enough. The care manager showed me around telling me that on entering and leaving each room I had to make sure the door was locked.

I was taken to the children's bedrooms and outside of the bedrooms was the child's photo. The manager told me their names, their age and their condition along with their behaviors. He was speaking so matter-of-factly about how one bites, one will hit with his open hand and the other will play with his excrement. I was then told to be alert and if the care workers tell me to get out the way quickly they may have to shout.

I thought I'm sure I can make some excuse to leave, looking around me only seeing the boy that I was told only yesterday pulled the microwave out of the socket and threw it across the room.

'I'm sure I am not cut out for this' , I thought, ' I am a teaching assistant who has had to deal with one or two children with ADHD and mild Aspergers and Autism and some children with 'naughty' behavior.'

I was told my role today would be to assist another care worker with a child and to make sure the laundry and dishes etc were taken care off so that the care workers could concentrate on the kids. I let out a sigh of relief, I could escape behind a locked door and do housework.

But I want to help children!!! My heart whined.

I then heard one of the other boys, he was about 13, he ran in flapping and screeching. I moved away, smiled and went to the laundry room, went to lock the door behind me and felt a push, I pushed back and locked the door.

How could I help these children if all I wanted to do was run away from them?

I looked at the clock on the wall. I had only been there for an hour and had 6 more left. How on Earth was I going to last without running away.

The care manager then suggested we take two of the boys to the grounds park for an hour before dinner. The care workers were a lovely young man of 21 and the girl was just 22. They were so natural with the children I just followed their lead. One of the boys just stood in one spot and flapped but stopped flapping when the girl told him to. He would sit on the swing for a minute then run off and flap again. Whilst the other boy who has a tendency to nip, was happily playing on the swing with the young man. I just stood in between them awkwardly.

When the workers were sitting just watching the kids I did what I do best; ask questions about themselves and how they entered into this profession. I gave them praise for their patience and tolerance and care at such young ages.

The evening went quite smoothly other than the male care worker been slapped in the face and the basket ball post been pulled down by another boy, who then had to be carried away to his room kicking and screaming and lashing out biting. But I had left unscathed!!

I finished off my laundry and cleaning and left at 9 pm.

I drove down the dark roads feeling quite shell shocked and all I could think about was how I didn't even try to connect with the kids. How distant and unapproachable I felt, even though the youngest  came to me and put his hands on my lap and I then patted him on his back.

I realized that I was afraid of the behaviors not of the children. I could see how vulnerable and how much they needed love and to communicate but couldn't in normal ways as they were non-verbal.

I felt awful!!!!!

I feel so much respect for people who do this job and really love it and the children they care for. They really are a special type of people. It takes more than just caring and feeling sorry for the children.

I learnt a lot about myself that evening and what it takes to really care for children with special need.

I learnt about my limitations and also about my capabilities.

I learnt that not everyone can do everything and that some people are better at some things more than others.

I learnt that following your heart with the help of your mind, is more helpful to others than letting your heart lead blindly!

I learnt that there is still more to learn...and that's O K!

Joy!

The angel guidance for mid week is JOY!!!!

'Joy is our natural state.'

Just ponder on this statement for a minute... yes, joy is our natural state. So when we are not feeling joy there is something unnatural going on.

How can that be? I hear you all shout! (along with my critical mind) 

Notice how it feels when a baby smiles at you. However 'not in joy' you are, a smile spreads begrudgingly across your face.

It is contagious! The more you smile, the more the baby smiles, that feeling of  'everything is good in the world' sweeps through your being.

We are so tuned into feelings of misery, doom, gloom that we pass by the evidence of good. 

For example, the News bombards us constantly with pain and ends with a little antidote at the end to make us feel better. But what most of us don't realize is that what we see, hear and are surrounded with becomes our reality. In other words, our beliefs are shaped by them.

Back to joy!

Following are a few ways to jump start your natural state of being in joy!

• En-joy whatever you are doing, whether it is washing the dishes or making a cake
• look at things with new eyes, switch from looking for the worst to looking at a better way
• spend more time in nature, and really look at what is around you.
• listen more to what your loved ones are saying, be compassionate instead of annoyed
• instead of worrying, do something that about it, if you can't, find something else to do
• be thankful for all you have, this means everything, acceptance comes before change
• and if all else fails, SMILE!!!!!!!!!!

En-joy your day xx

Gratitude!

OK, I am taking the advice from the angels and finding things to be grateful for. I started to make a list in the morning,

• Lovely, warm, comfy bed
• my children are well
• I am well
• my partner loves me
• I am alive
• still on holiday
• beautiful cat
• have enough money
• have a car
• can look OK (if I make an effort!)

Then I got stuck! I found it more and more difficult to find reasons to be grateful. I found my mind going to reasons to NOT be grateful and boy did the list fill up pretty quickly.

Most of us are on default to misery! We mean well, we try the positive thinking and even tell ourselves off when we have a bad thought.

If we are on default for misery it is very hard to jump to joy and impossible to find things to be grateful, when our radar is picking up signals for doom!

What if we write more things to be grateful, will it make us feel grateful?

Could do, but the vibration of doom is so strong that it will entice you back.

Let's analyse some of my reasons on my list and see where the thought is coming from. Whether it is coming from my default setting or from true gratitude:

• My lovely, warm, comfy bed

Well, I was still in my bed and was feeling comfy, so I guess I was feeling true gratitude for this

• My children are well

On first inspection this is gratitude, but further investigation shows that it is riddled with worry. Default setting of misery :(

• have a beautiful cat

This is pure gratitude as there is nothing else it could be

• Have enough money

Could be gratitude but where is it coming from? A place of worry or a place of thankfulness?

Am I making too much of this Gratitude stuff? 

Yes I am. I am just trying to show how our default thinking can sabotage our intentions on being happy.

The good thing is, the more you practice being grateful, the easier it is to feel it!

Thank you xxx

Angel Reading for Week 26/8 - 1/9/13

I will be giving a reading for each week using my angel oracle cards, I have a new pack called Angel Aura cards by Jenny Smedley.



Monday and Tuesday

Gratitude - Say thank you for everything in your life

The more we show gratitude for the things we have, the more abundance we receive. The angels are asking us to focus on the positive in our lives and appreciate the small things as well as the big things. 


Wednesday and Thursday

Joy - Smile and your angel will smile on you.

Smiling is contagious, try it! Notice how others respond towards you when you smile instead of frowning all the time. This ties in with the beginning of the week, about being thankful, say thank you more, smile and see how this creates a tsunami of joy!


Weekend 

Determination - Stay focused on your angel and you can accomplish anything

Focus on joy! It can be hard to stay in joy especially when others around you are being grumpy, or you are feeling grumpy. But determination can accomplish miracles. Expect miracles, be the miracle. And don't forget to smile...

Angel Love xx

New Beginnings - again!

I seem to be starting on new beginnings over and over. It is like a spiral of new and old climbing higher and higher but also getting stuck on a rung sometimes and even feeling that I am spiraling downwards at other times.

Maybe that is what life is really like - not linearly but spirally!

We seem to think of our lives in a line: we are born, we grow, we die, from 0 to a higher number.

 But is it really like that?

I often feel like I am regressing to childlike emotions, feeling very wronged and sulk about things not going my way.

Is that how an adult should behave?

Not sure?

But who says it shouldn't be the case?

Yeah, I ask lots of questions and most of the time it's not because I need them answered. I think I just like to ponder, it must be my ancestral Greek roots of philosophizing.

It gets annoying to others around me who are here on planet Earth and grounded in day to day reality (or illusion, but that's another subject for pondering!)

So, back to new beginnings!

It is a Full Moon tomorrow or the following day depending on which part of the world you are from. The Full Moon energy is there to help us with letting old things go, to allow the new to take hold. It is about taking an inventory of who you are, checking out your beliefs, your attitudes, your judgements and assessing if they are really helping you with your life.

If they are and you feel good about things then just keep on doing what you're doing.
If you are not feeling good about things and what you are doing, then most likely you need to change a few thought processes.

I am good at finding motivational quotes, for example,

"What you think of the most, grows"

"You are what you think of the most"

"People see others as they are"

In other words, perception is key and so are thoughts. They really do create our reality. If you don't believe me give yourselves a little challenge for a a week. Notice what you think of the most in that week. Then the following week notice what your experiences are.

 For example, you are annoyed with your partner for being lazy, unhelpful and a pain. You think of this constantly, you notice it, you moan to your friends about it, to him, to the cat.

Guess what happens?

Nothing! nothing changes other than you get more of the same.

Why?

Because it is what is in your vibration and that is attracting more of the same as this is the law of attraction.....

We'll leave it there for now as I feel I am of on another tangent of energy and vibration and love.

So I leave you with the challenge, feel free to contact me and let me know how you got on.

It's been a long time!

It has been a long time since I visited my own blog. Why is that so?
I feel as if I have run dry... nothing feels the same anymore. What I believed before does not apply any more.
I still believe in angels and still use my crystals but I am going through my own personal healing and do not feel able to give congruent advice, opinions or guidance. It is like I have been STOPPED.
This has happened quite a few times along my journey of awakening, but now it feels like make or break. I am been pushed, pulled, squeezed, strained to look deeper, further, into the realms of my being. To really find me, the being that is real and pure and raw. I am being challenged and provoked to take off every role, mask and cloak, to become naked and vulnerable.
I am feeling like I have nowhere to hide anymore. All the excuses and facades and games I have played do not stick anymore. 'You can fool some of the people some of the time but not all of the people all of the time.' I can't fool myself anymore and that is just it. I am not even that bothered about what others think of me anymore, but I am concerned about what I think of me. The real I the me the essence of my being, wants to be seen and is not happy with being portrayed as anything less than who I am.
I don't know if anyone reads my words, I would like to think that anyone who does, finds something that resonates. If not, that is fine. It is all fine, all of it, even the bad. I hope that when I come out of this journey of discovery, I have more to share with others. Until then . . .

Let it Begin!

The new energies are coming in thick and fast. Whatever needs to go has to go. It can be painful, somethings do not want to go, somethings are so deeply entrenched that they have morphed into you, taking over your personality and clouding the real you.
But hold on tight and trust!
This time is different,
This time is the end of time
This time is a time of no time of new bginnings.

Take a deep Breath and buckle your seat belts. Maybe you can really let your hair down and go bare back, no seat belts. Be FREE!

It will get ugly, frightening and sometimes you will get drawn into the drama. Let go!
Allow what is happening,
Breathe some more.
You are being taken care of, whatever may be happening, TRUST some more, have faith, BE!

Everything is Energy!

Right, I'm done with searching (for now). I ususally go through a period of devouring information from all sides - dark and light but trying to keep my feet grounded in the love side. I read, research, dream, ask my guidance and look with new eyes, comparing what I have learnt so far.

I am a thinker and this causes me to over rationalise. I am also an intuitive so I 'know' things without knowing how I know. But thankfully I am also a 'feeler' and I can feel when something is off or on. But having an overactive thirst for knowledge sometimes gets the better of me.

But as I said, for now I am done, I have come into balance. This is something I used to find very hard to do where I would either burn myself swinging like a pendulum from too much thinking or too much feeling. I have learnt DISCERNMENT. I have learnt how to trust my body signals and also to have FAITH in my knowing. Also with the thinking part, I have learnt to put everything through the filter of LOVE.

So, what have I come up with so far?

Everything is energy!

Nothing new really as most of you already know this, maybe spiritually, maybe intellectually, maybe both or none of the above.

But, personally I feel I understand this TRUTH on another level. I can see how our perception can create our own TRUTH. I can feel how our feelings can create our own REALITIES. And I 'know' at some level that I am not really understanding rationally, that all is happening in DIVINE perfect order.

What does this mean?

DIVINE perfect order means that wherever our perceptions or energy are at, Divine order still happens. We may be experiencing struggle and pain with much fear, but on another level, a DIVINE level all is ok. All is enfolding at your own vibration.

So, if you are still holding on to old belief systems, beleiving everything you read or hear on the news and other authority institutions, which sometimes include the family, Church, health system and also schools, then you are expereincing a realty where the vibration is lower- not worse or bad, but just lower on the energy scale.

This causes us to not trust in our own inner guidance, to become fearful and to be carried away in a mass collectiveness where the energy is the same.

If you are beginning to see differently, question what is in front of you as maybe this is not really it, and prefer to choose peace and love instead of restricted thinking, feeling and actions, then your energy is vibrating higher- not better or special.

We all have to go through the lower to get to the higher, if that is what we want. If we enjoy the fight, the blame, the attack and the fear, we can stay where we are, it is our choice. Energy goes in the same direction as all there is is energy. As we too are energy.

Enjoy the journey, it is always our choice where we want to make our stop-overs!

We are the one's we've been waiting for!

We have been telling the people that this is the Eleventh Hour.
Now you must go back and tell the people that this is the Hour.

And there are things to be considered.
Where are you living? What are you doing?
What are your relationships? Are you in the right relation?
Where is your water? Know your garden.

It is time to speak your truth. Create your community.
Be good to each other. And do not look outside yourself for the leader.

This could be a good time! There is a river flowing now very fast.
It is so great and swift that there are those who will be afraid.
They will try to hold onto the shore.
They will feel they are being torn apart and they will suffer greatly.
Know the river has its destination.
The elders say we must let go of the shore, and push off and into the river,
Keep our eyes open, and our head above the water.
See who is in there with you and Celebrate.

At this time in history, we are to take nothing personally.
Least of all ourselves. For the moment that we do,
Our spiritual growth and journey comes to a halt.
The time of the lone wolf is over, Gather yourselves!
Banish the word struggle from your attitude and your vocabulary.
All that you do now must be done in a sacred manner
And in celebration.

We are the one's we've been waiting for."
The Elders, Hopi Nation, Oraibi Arizona